“Repeat after me ‘Daddy, you’re as dead as daddy dead can be’ end … More
Category: hija
Your anger will outlive your father
Too bad. So sad. Your angerWill outlive your dad. I’ll see to that.
Paper tiger father skips fire, goes straight to smoke
Array your daughter’s heart in a fistfuck of a Gordian knot
“okay, sweetie, press your luck.“
Grab yer daddy like a grudge
Then Hong Kong, the snowboard, the concussion, the Matthew Sweet, the TS Eliot
@ LTF … Then Hong Kong, the snowboard concussion, the Matthew Sweet, the Peper-gone, Haley her mother, her migraines, her … More
Tailing that black dog them game trails very black night
In Lightfoot, Virginia Those child-bearing days That black dog and I rode them game trails out back, lights-free, blackout-drive She … More
We begged our children as bats, v2
We begged our children as bats To eat the insects of our existence To guide us deaf, lacking radar To … More
Ally-dog and I rode the game trails out back, lights-free, blackout-drive
In Lightfoot, Virginia Those child-bearing days Ally-dog and I rode the game trails out back, lights-free. She led. I followed. … More
Less culpable at her funeral?
M, B In the spirit of helping out, thoughts below, longer & more poorly-organized than I’d hoped, but work calls … More
Expect Trainspotting
Expect Trainspotting What addict wouldn’t object to a disruption in her supply? This week’s firing of the John’s Hopkins Pain … More
Panic in the Baltimore waiting room …
Panic in the Baltimore waiting room … Gaps and shape-shifting sands of speculation & surmise. Who among us wonders “What … More
Different kettle of fish-facts
Braddock, re your question: For me it’s not a matter of which datapoints are in/accurate. For me the concern is … More
For want of some fucking Valium, or weed …
For want of some fucking Valium, or weed … For want of a nail: 1. Ma doesn’t eat. 2. Ma … More
Did Ma actually ever get off the smack?
Missed Ma opportunities
Missed opportunities for us, Ma Getting off the smack Dietician for Ma Physical therapy Flies-on-wall at TeleHealth video calls via … More
What does it take for the hip surgeon to say“yeah, maybe later”
What does it take for the ambitious hip surgeon to say “yeah, maybe later” to a patient w necrosis at … More
Tramadol’s for chumps
Ma’s catastrophic anxiety: Is this the best 22nd century Johns Hopkins can do? Really?
Dictator her
Braddock, bringing your reply to me to our sub-group here: “I hope you realised that she wasn’t fired from JH, … More
7 months with a Fentanyl patch
After 7 months with a Fentanyl patch, and Oxy chasers: who among us wouldn’t be certifiably addicted? what addict wouldn’t … More
Is Trainspotting the best?
Ma’s catastrophic anxiety: Is this the best 22nd century Johns Hopkins can do? Really?
What addict doesn’t object
What addict doesn’t object to a supply-chain interruption? Expect Trainspotting.
Vote me off this island, please
Ma, not dismissing your fears. Not a one of us knows WTF we’re taking about. All of us civilian laypersons … More
Where’s the dumb Valium?
Consider the following: How have we effectively & persistently improved Ma, your and yours’ quality of life in the past … More
Convinced that morphine pump
whaddya think of Ma’s 7 months on the smack-train now?
Dragnet and the phone game
M, P, I agree. It’s really hard. Everyone knows that in any situation, the first report is always wrong. Like … More
She wasn’t trainspotting?
P, thanks for answering the questions. Sorry that you’re dealing w this full-time w zero support, in Covid-fucking time. Misery … More
Rumors of health are as gusty
SibsI think that efforts to shape an agenda are a fine start. I smell a threat to its fruition. On … More
Inscrutable, shakes-head
Same river, many wells … Decades ago, AK shocked me with: “Everyone grows up in a different family.” Our lives … More
Oh, sure, bio-dad. — Lucius, the well is deeper than I knew
Ma Never-send letter thoughts I put together. Even now the little girl causes stress Jaybird Not sure what your calls … More
Oh, sure, bio-dad. — such an unhapp of a child
Oh, sure, bio-dad. — such an unhapp of a child My-family Thanksgivings in Western Maryland: you toddler, crying folded like … More
Amicus curiae (ma)
To Whom It May Concern:While I have no official standing in the court, I write as the mother of Justin … More
Them feral dogs, that feral daughter
So I adopted this Black Lab, Nickee. Looks for all the world like every other Black Lab– ‘cept for the … More