@ LTF … Then Hong Kong, the snowboard concussion, the Matthew Sweet, the Peper-gone, Haley her mother, her migraines, her … More
Category: hija
Tailing that black dog them game trails very black night
In Lightfoot, Virginia Those child-bearing days That black dog and I rode them game trails out back, lights-free, blackout-drive She … More
We begged our children as bats, v2
We begged our children as bats To eat the insects of our existence To guide us deaf, lacking radar To … More
Ally-dog and I rode the game trails out back, lights-free, blackout-drive
In Lightfoot, Virginia Those child-bearing days Ally-dog and I rode the game trails out back, lights-free. She led. I followed. … More
Less culpable at her funeral?
M, B In the spirit of helping out, thoughts below, longer & more poorly-organized than I’d hoped, but work calls … More
Expect Trainspotting
Expect Trainspotting What addict wouldn’t object to a disruption in her supply? This week’s firing of the John’s Hopkins Pain … More
Panic in the Baltimore waiting room …
Panic in the Baltimore waiting room … Gaps and shape-shifting sands of speculation & surmise. Who among us wonders “What … More
Different kettle of fish-facts
Braddock, re your question: For me it’s not a matter of which datapoints are in/accurate. For me the concern is … More
For want of some fucking Valium, or weed …
For want of some fucking Valium, or weed … For want of a nail: 1. Ma doesn’t eat. 2. Ma … More
Did Ma actually ever get off the smack?
Missed Ma opportunities
Missed opportunities for us, Ma Getting off the smack Dietician for Ma Physical therapy Flies-on-wall at TeleHealth video calls via … More
What does it take for the hip surgeon to say“yeah, maybe later”
What does it take for the ambitious hip surgeon to say “yeah, maybe later” to a patient w necrosis at … More
Tramadol’s for chumps
Ma’s catastrophic anxiety: Is this the best 22nd century Johns Hopkins can do? Really?
Dictator her
Braddock, bringing your reply to me to our sub-group here: “I hope you realised that she wasn’t fired from JH, … More
7 months with a Fentanyl patch
After 7 months with a Fentanyl patch, and Oxy chasers: who among us wouldn’t be certifiably addicted? what addict wouldn’t … More
Is Trainspotting the best?
Ma’s catastrophic anxiety: Is this the best 22nd century Johns Hopkins can do? Really?
What addict doesn’t object
What addict doesn’t object to a supply-chain interruption? Expect Trainspotting.
Vote me off this island, please
Ma, not dismissing your fears. Not a one of us knows WTF we’re taking about. All of us civilian laypersons … More
Where’s the dumb Valium?
Consider the following: How have we effectively & persistently improved Ma, your and yours’ quality of life in the past … More
Convinced that morphine pump
whaddya think of Ma’s 7 months on the smack-train now?
Dragnet and the phone game
M, P, I agree. It’s really hard. Everyone knows that in any situation, the first report is always wrong. Like … More
She wasn’t trainspotting?
P, thanks for answering the questions. Sorry that you’re dealing w this full-time w zero support, in Covid-fucking time. Misery … More
Rumors of health are as gusty
SibsI think that efforts to shape an agenda are a fine start. I smell a threat to its fruition. On … More
Inscrutable, shakes-head
Same river, many wells … Decades ago, AK shocked me with: “Everyone grows up in a different family.” Our lives … More
Oh, sure, bio-dad. — Lucius, the well is deeper than I knew
Ma Never-send letter thoughts I put together. Even now the little girl causes stress Jaybird Not sure what your calls … More
Oh, sure, bio-dad. — such an unhapp of a child
Oh, sure, bio-dad. — such an unhapp of a child My-family Thanksgivings in Western Maryland: you toddler, crying folded like … More
Amicus curiae (ma)
To Whom It May Concern:While I have no official standing in the court, I write as the mother of Justin … More
Them feral dogs, that feral daughter
So I adopted this Black Lab, Nickee. Looks for all the world like every other Black Lab– ‘cept for the … More
We begged our children as bats, v0
We begged our children as batsTo eat the insects of our existenceTo eat the insects feasting our illnessesTo eat the … More
Life at Fenton’s Mill Near Williamsburg
We walked across the upended bricks, Where a wigged and powdered man died of leeches, A running boy died a … More
Fear of geometry
it is a simpler feat to throw gels across spots,to change shapes with light,to engineer transitory states of light and … More
Oh, sure, bio-dad. — big zen clown shoes
Oh, sure, bio-dad. — such an unhapp of a child My-family Thanksgivings in Western Maryland: you toddler, crying folded like a deflated beach-ball buddha at the top of the stairs; beyond your 3 years; perplexed your Grandma Pat: ” … such an unhappy child.”
Oh, sure, bio-dad. — The we-don’t-get-along story
Oh, sure, bio-dad. — The we-don’t-get-along story We don’t get along. Always on edge of a fight. Little in common. We … More